(Sorry the pics are a little blurry - they were almost all made on phone camera :-))
|Hanging out with my Aunties and having a ball - up past my bedtime, of course!!|
For those of you who do not know, we have spent the last two years of our life praying for and loving on a beautiful little girl who lives in Haiti. Through so many changes that are completely out of our control, we have loved her, spent time with her, been far away from her, and recently, because of complications with attempts to adopt her, are again separated from her. Her name is Ashley. Every time I hear her name, think her name, say her name out loud, emotion wells up. Emotions that i wanted for a while to not trust, but ones which I have found are God-given and healthy. I am thankful that God has spoken to my heart to allow me to feel, and has also given me a peace when those emotions come that surpasses ANY POSSIBLE SPECK OF UNDERSTANDING..AT ALL. For we have no idea why God has not chosen to move this process forward or why we have gone through the hardships, obstacles, and frustrations we have endured. However, we do know that we serve a mighty, omniscient, and sovereign God who knew Ashley before we ever knew she was alive, formed her in her mother's womb, and is loving her as her Heavenly Father better than we ever could. In those things, in the midst of uncertainty, we take refuge. Psalm 118:8 "It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man." I decided tonight to remember to cling to this verse. And to write about what is going on, even when it's hard. While reading Heather Junkin's blog, i was reminded to be proud of God's work in our life and to be eager to share our trust in Him. I realize that when this verse says "man", it is also talking about me and my limited comprehension of God and his timing and big picture. So, I am determined to remind myself as often as possible of this truth. In the meantime, we pray and we wait eagerly on the Lord. Romans 8:25 "But if we hope for what we do not yet observe, we eagerly wait for it with patience."
|Hours before getting sick, we had a great day at the Nashville Zoo .|
|In the ambulance 12 hours later, constricted/inflamed airway, low oxygen level.|
|Feeling much better after a few breathing treatments and steroids hours later.|
I pray that you have heard hope and encouragement tonight. Sometimes, hope is elusive, but I was reminded of the peace and hope that God gave us related to Ashley and to Willow in recent days as I watched my friend Heather wait eagerly for her little adoptive boy. I prayed, as I read her blog tonight, that God would continue to give her perseverance...that he would give her hope...not in things of this world or in any promises that man can make, but in the Lord, who is our refuge. And that as I prayed for her, that I would not forget any of those things that i so "bravely" shared with her just a few short months ago as she visited her little man. That I would not forget the promises of God's word, and that in the meantime, we would encourage one another and not give up, for we serve a Lord who does NOT give up on us.
Good night, friends...lots of sleep to catch up on...:-)